What it feels like to be in 2009...

Hello 2009 and to you all readers of my blog!

I surely hope that this is going to be a smasher of a year! A 2009 in which we all get in touch with our deepest desires and fears. Sounds challenging? Sure! But should we not truly live what we only dream of and quash all those demons once and for all? OK!! I know I am exaggerating -fulfilling all of your dreams is near impossible, but how about seeing some turn into reality so that you can create space for some new ones?

So I hear you ask - what about you? What are your dreams for 2009? I am trying to live healthy this year - 2008 was one in which I loved too much, ate too much, studied too much, etc etc...The loved too much piece is the one that I will struggle with the most. I have loved Dave so intensely that it almost consumed me. I am happy that we are not together now - he certainly did a lot of damage to me, to himself and to the two of us. I am happy now that I know which direction my life is taking and that I am not held at ransom by another person's challenges. It's good to feel in control and able to love myself once again and to an extent I appreciate the attention I get. Am I just "new meat" in town or what? In reality it's actually quite sad to see grown up men fall at my feet, but I am being good and politely decline their advances. I have space only for people who are healthy in my life right now and I am being given some good love right now.

So welcome 2009 - show me what good love is - since I am ready to drink it all in one big gulp -like a thirsty pilgrim on the way to Jerusalem...