for TrueBeijing

Hello audience and especially TrueBeijing,
I wanted first of all to thank you for reading my blog. I know that most of you know me, but some know me only through these pages - the guy at Beauchamp Financials, Dong now at Purdue, and True Beijing are just some of the most regular visitors. I appreciate your interest and wonder what makes this read so interesting to you. I hope it's because what I write reaches you somehow and I hope it does so in a positive, constructive manner.

I have shied away from talking about some of the tougher challenges in my life and I hope you will understand that I will refrain from doing so. Some of the people around me deserve their own privacy too. I though will still give you a good glimpse of who I am and how I lead my life.

So TrueBeijing, if you really want to know more about me and the school in preparation to your move feel free to send me your email address and I will reply back.

In the meantime, I would like to thank one particular member of my audience -Mr X, for being close to me and so understanding of my challenges. I have not known you for long, but you are certainly showing me that life in 2009 can be very sweet.

P.S. If you think that this blog is worth anything, then feel free to share it with anyone you like!

What it feels like to be in 2009...

Hello 2009 and to you all readers of my blog!

I surely hope that this is going to be a smasher of a year! A 2009 in which we all get in touch with our deepest desires and fears. Sounds challenging? Sure! But should we not truly live what we only dream of and quash all those demons once and for all? OK!! I know I am exaggerating -fulfilling all of your dreams is near impossible, but how about seeing some turn into reality so that you can create space for some new ones?

So I hear you ask - what about you? What are your dreams for 2009? I am trying to live healthy this year - 2008 was one in which I loved too much, ate too much, studied too much, etc etc...The loved too much piece is the one that I will struggle with the most. I have loved Dave so intensely that it almost consumed me. I am happy that we are not together now - he certainly did a lot of damage to me, to himself and to the two of us. I am happy now that I know which direction my life is taking and that I am not held at ransom by another person's challenges. It's good to feel in control and able to love myself once again and to an extent I appreciate the attention I get. Am I just "new meat" in town or what? In reality it's actually quite sad to see grown up men fall at my feet, but I am being good and politely decline their advances. I have space only for people who are healthy in my life right now and I am being given some good love right now.

So welcome 2009 - show me what good love is - since I am ready to drink it all in one big gulp -like a thirsty pilgrim on the way to Jerusalem...